Jelas dia menipu

dia kata dia tahu
dia kata aku tak tahu
buta,pekak
tak berhati
mati

dia kata semua salahku
semua rahsia dia tahu
aku tak tahu

mungkin benar dia pernah selingkuh
tapi itu dulu
kata dia aku percaya

pusing tengok lihat
siapa disana membawa tangan yang memeluk tubuhmu erat suatu ketika dulu?
tak nampakkah lagi
tak rasa kah lagi, dia
Curang?

Jelas bukan
kata dia
TIPU

Jelas bukan
dia
PENIPU

heret sama janji dulu
buang sedih ganti rindu
siapa yang seksa?
hanya dia seorang

dulu sekata
makan semeja
tidur berbantal satu
hati jadi satu
jelas dirinya.

sekarang buka mata
pekakkan telinga
TINGGALKAN DIA.
jangan tanya aku Kenapa.

pusing toleh lihat ke depan
hati bukan satu
tidur lena tanpanya
makan bagai raja
biar tak sekata
buang semua janji dulu

Jelas bukan
kau akan
BAHAGIA

seni itu jiwa baginya

menghabiskan masa menenangkan minda dan menjana idea seni di sini DeLuQies

-bila kegembiraan  menjadi speechless akibat gurauan penipuan tersebut toing3- I DAPAT LESEN P- sekian

sarlamat tinggal..

i cant sleep last night coz i was thinking too much about him. i felt miserable. i felt i am ugly,stupid,clumsy and other negative thoughts. i even cant concentrate on my revision because of those negative thoughts. i kept asking why?apa lebihnya dia?apa kurangnya diri ini?is it my fault?or you are the one who is blind. well, he gave me the hope and the he ruined it.. i prayed last night to get some strength to  face him today. then i woke up this morning, checked my sms and my lovely sister sent me a message-words of advice

Wanita solehah itu tidak suka mengenali dan dikenali, tak suka memandang dan dipandang, serta dibibir nya tak minati nama-nama lelaki dan dibibir lelaki tak meminati namanya

Saidatina Fatimah

ooohhh it was like---menusuk ke jiwa..terasa bangat diri ini tak sesolehah saidatina Fatimah..Astaghfirullah hal a'ziim . Allah always shows me the right path whenever i am in the wrong black hole. So, i like to announce that i am not gonna talk about men for a while. insyaAllah.. puasa kan diri hahah.. well, to make it simple if i'm no good to you, you are no good to me either or much worse... so what is the point talking nice and shit things about you anyway..you are the one who is loosing me, LOSER!!!

tutup buku lama,buka buku baru

menyahtoksin neh susah gak..moga diberi keiimanan yang kuat..keazaman yang kukuh...

tx sister HUSNA A...muaxx

floating

teringat masa kecik-kecik dulu..pantang nampak kolam terus masukkan dua-dua kaki dalam kolam sambil berdiri...

plummmm!! tetiba dunia gelap,telinga pekak

then my hero datang menyelamatkan

i can still feel the strong grip of my brother's hands. he pulled me out from the pool and dropped me on the hard floor..then my mom came running towards me with anger..haha..i cried not because i nak lemas tapi sebab kena marah... i was around 8 or 9 when it was happened.

don't blame me...kolam tu nampak stakat lutut je tapi bila masuk sampai dada airnya..haha..dari situ la terus semat dalam otak-jangan terpedaya dengan kolam air,DALAM.

then orang ajak mandi kolam pun dah tak ingin..

later, my papa taught me how to swim but i barely able to float unless with the help from him. he bought me pelampung to help me floating-erm actually i think he made it by himself from tayar getah..kuang3.

but the lesson seemed too extreme for a manja and egoist like me (reminder i was between 9 or 10 years old at that time,of coz la manja,hihi)

then i blaja cara tahan nafas dalam air.i severally practiced it in the bathroom and OCCAsionally made a bet with my bro-sapa menyelam paling lama dia menang...of coz la dia yang menang-p/s he was the champion in swimming at his school bawah 12 tahun suatu ketika dulu *eerrrgghh*

second times lemas kat pantai,sbb nak praktikkan apa yang diajar oleh papa.bajet terer tahan nafas dalam air masin sengsorang..pastu tetiba masa nak menyelam tetiba nafas tak banyak pastu terus panik..air masuk hidung, terkapai-kapai nasib baik air paras pinggang je..so dapat naik balik kepala n bernafas..pastu terus naik...menjadi rahsia dari keluarga sampai sekarang.. SERIK..

time masuk kolam dalam sampai leher adalah di bukit merah lake town resort masa tu from 4 or form 5...i can still walking in the pool and turun naikkan kepala dalam air tak mcm skrg..tapi still tak pandai berenang..i cant even float.jelez melihat keberanian anak buahnya menyelam dan floating dan boleh dikira berenang..aih she was just 10 or 11 at that time.she even learned how to do all that stuff almost by herself.

then time matric adalah last skali masuk kolam...my sister showing off her capability of floating with hand widely open..i plak just jalan2 dlm air.

pastu sekarang I was FLOATING AND siap bernafas dalam air lagi..lama giler boleh tahan nafas.. thanks to ain coz teach me how to do all of that.minit pertama around 20 minit cam gtu nak tahan nafas pun dah tak ingat camne,still tak de skill lagi pastu ain tunjuk camne nak buat baru segala ingatan masa kecik2 dulu tentang cara2 tahan nafas menjelma kembali diingatan..and skill ain tu sangat berguna dan mudah untuk diikuti. thanks to the sister jugak coz bagi tips tahan nafas dan bernafas dalam air. i learned fizik today..the bubbles that running out from the nose or the mouth are actually helping you to float your head up to the surface..*ganyang je neh ntah betul ke tidak teori aku neh..hehe*

the sister said that if u want to float-this is the easy way..letak tangan kat dinding jubin kolam push it harder and release or force your legs to float and straighten your posture and your legs. then lepas kan tangan dari jubin perlahan-lahan.*yang ni tak buat coz kenangan silam masih menghantui*

ain taught me a lot..she gave me courage to swim again...she always said that "trust me babe"or "u kena buat macam ni" or "tengok ain buat ni"..she always gave me positive energy and courage to float..and i can float..*terasa diri kurus jap sbb boleh float*

the tips untuk tahan nafas and bernafas juga berguna dan saya berjaya melakukannya paling lama dalam sejarah tahan nafas saya.. i think i nak bet ngan my bro lagi..mesti i yang menang :D

jelez tgk ain boleh 'terbang' dalam air...i nak berenang cam JAN DI dalam cerita BOF..

erm,kena bagi toblerone kat ain kalau hari ke 4 i tak pandai berenang lagi..aih, ni yang nak kena belajar berenang betul2 neh kalau tak melayang duit aku..haha..tapi dh nak cuti so next sem lah..

i think i need a google...so that i can use my eyes while diving. and buy swimming outfit..mydin sounds murah..oh, i think i wanna replace my sleeping time at 4/6 into swimming activity..

FLOATING people..I was FLOATING...tak LEMAS!!and tak masuk air dalam telinga *kejayaan terbesar i think* xoxo

bukan omong kosong

what should i do to get into University of Leeds?

1)Focus in my study-make notes on every subjects and do revision after class,everyday

2)make up a group discussion-one subject every week/consult with the lecturer -pretend that i did not understand the lesson although i can catch up with it..:P

3)no more sleeping in the evening

4)sleep at 12 pm everyday and wake up for subuh prayer

5)do the best in every mid term and in the project works

if the mid term is 30 marks so i must get 25-28 marks

if the project work is 30 then i have to get 25-28 marks apprxmtly

6)i have to maintain my GPA and CGPA

next semester my target is 3.3-3.5

which means i must get A/A- and B only..no more C

7)involve actively in any clubs or any occasions

8)organize my schedule wisely

9) make my study more fun and interesting by hanging out with friends and family

-/watching movies/karaoke/bowling in the weekend(2/3 times in every semester)

10)always think positive and make my self closer to god.

then if these working i have to target higher

3.5-3.8 for every semesters

and make a great commitment in my modelling career if i can balance my life nicely.

i have 2 years and a half to make this a reality...amiin

movie's maniac

list of movies that i have,need and want to watch this year and upcoming year

1-Beastly
2-harry potter and the deathly hallows part 1
3-Eclipse
4-harry potter and deathly hallows part 2(is it separated??)
5-breaking dawn
6-avatar
7-iron man2 (never got the chance to watch it)
8-not in my mind right now.
9-killers (i want to watch it but since kutcher is in it-so biar la dulu)

university of leeds

i always dream BIG..


i found out about this university from my sister who was unluckily has to reject the offer to study in here because of the family crisis then i fell in love with it since i found out that one of the lecturers from political science department was a student in UoL. so i google it and then it seems so seductive and hard to reject. it seems fun,relax and a genius place to study. usaha, doa dan tawakkal akan membuahkan kejayaan. ameen.






University of Leeds..insyaAllah
Master in English Language/Literature



this is where i'll be in
hehe..


or here

MA in International Communications

or here

MA in Communications Studies

requirements
Applicants whose first language is not English must fulfil our language requirements of a minimum of 6.5 in IELTS with no grade below 6.0, OR 580 in TOEFL with 4.5 in the Test of Written English.


A sample of your own recently-written academic work on a topic relevant to the scheme for which you are applying, of approximately 2000 words.

well, it sounds easy

and this one is a bit harder

The International Communication MA at Leeds University is a selective programme. We review each application on its merits, but as a general guide, we accept only applicants who hold the equivalent of a UK BA Honours in the social sciences or English at the First or Upper Second level, and prefer applicants with relevant professional experience. Slightly lower academic qualifications or qualifications from other academic fields are occasionally accepted in view of relevant professional experience. Candidates whose first language is not English will be required to provide evidence of linguistic competence at the time of application.

this one is easier than above

The normal entry requirement is a very good first degree equivalent to a British BA Honours, Upper Second or higher. This can be in any subject. Relevant professional experience will be considered in assessing applications.

Applicants whose first language is not English will be required to provide evidence of their English language proficiency. Recognized tests are IELTS with a required overall score of 6.5 and no element below 6.0, or TOEFL with a required score of 600 (250 for the computer-based test) with at least 4 on the written test, or on the internet-based TOEFL a score of 94 with at least 20 in listening, 23 in reading, 23 in speaking and 24 in writing.

As long as it is University of Leeds than i'm in

no matter what it takes

i'm gonna let myself in

that is my promise.

shopping at Leeds not In UOL lah..

Teman

Harry Potter's casts all grown up.

I always wanted them to smile and laugh non-stop.so good luck to you guys in acting and rich-ing hehe..
this is GINNY...well of course i did not like her at first place..now,undecided...hehe..in real life,she is gojes..
this is ROn or Rupert Grint..He is still the same-the face but more macho la..
this is Hermione Granger or Emma Watson...pretty as always..genius+beauty=HER
The Hero who-must-be-loved HArry Potter or Daniel Radcliffe..As expected to see..Handsome

DUA

i thought you are the right person for her

i thought you are good enough for her

i thought you love her

but

you are the bad person on earth

you are not suit enough to be her husband

you are the demon

but

she loves you

she is doing and thinking nice thing about you

she thinks you are destined to love her.

pathetic, stupid and blind

this is all my fault

i should have stopped you from made her crazed about you

i should have stopped you from hurting her

this is all your new wife fault

she should not be in love with someone husband

she should have stopped from rampas you from her

but

you are the one who should be blame

you are a liar!!!

i thought you are different

i respect you as my own brother

but you ruined it

you happily ruined it

we are happy with our life right now

so go away!!!

stop giving her the fantasy

go to your lover

she is the right one to you

as pathetic as you are

BULLSHIT!!

BEDEBAH!!

B is for BAD THINGS

BODOH!!

oh i wish i never kenal you BANGANG

thanks for hurting us

thanks for the hypocrisy

i'm not finished with you yet

revenge is at your door

tiada kemaafan disini

tiada tangisan disini

kau pergi meniggalkan dirinya

terkapai-kapai

lemas dalam penghinaan, kecurangan dan kesengsaraan

kamu bukan untuk dirinya

dan

dia bukan untuk dirimu

cukuplah

penghinaan yang kau semburkan kepada kami

kamu curang

kamu pembelot

pada janji yang kau semai dengannya

pada ayat akad yang kau ucapkan.

kau pamerkan kepolosan pada wajahmu

kau sujud pada-Nya

kau seperti malaikat

itu dulu

sebelum kebenaran

topeng syaitanmu terbuka

aku hairan

bagaimana dia

boleh berdiam

begitu lama

tanda cinta setia dia padamu

tidak terlintaskah

sedikit rasa kasihan

sedikit rasa keikhlasan

apa yang kamu bayangkan hanya ketidaksempurnaan

apa yang kamu nampak hanya perhiasan dunia

apa yang kamu rasa hanya bisikan syaitan

aku doakan yang terbaik buat kamu

aku doakan yang terbaik buat insan yang kamu cinta

yang kesempurnaannya itu lebih dari dia

tak apa

hanya Tuhan yang tahu

apa balasan kepada mu

tak apa

aku tak terseksa

tapi sedikit kecewa

rasa dikhianati

rasa benci

tak apa

tak apa

yang pergi akan sentiasa diganti

moga yang lebih baik untuk dirinya

InsyaALLah

bukan tujuanku untuk mengejimu

tapi

rasa sakit dalam hati

perlu diluahkan

supaya yang lain

tidak buta mengikuti jejakmu

wahai lelaki

setialah pada yang satu

kerna yang kedua belum tentu membahagiakan

malas

skrg tgh baca blog..bila la nak buat ass'es
lalalalala...MALAS.

who inspires me

this is the post about remarkable people who inspires me everyday. they give me the reason to stay alive, to never give up.. they are the meaning of woman regardless of their weaknesses.

they are Queen Rania of Jordan and Angelina Jolie

this is the picture of Jolie-pitts

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this is QUeen Rania.. i wish i am her..beautiful muslim woman,lovely person and one of my idol. she has the BIG LOVING HEART.

oh i wish i could be just like her..doing things that she is doing..acting,helping,donating,rich-ing.

she is gorgeous kan... Angelina Jolie the most talented woman and has big heart and handsome bf i must include..hehe

happy time

my sayang treats me a ticket to watch PERSIA!!

a bucket of pop corn and a bottle of mineral water are also included

first we decide nak tgk cerita mana.

1.shrek

2.robin hood

3.persia

4.iron man2

i keep shrek for next week just for my sis

we reject robin hood coz i think it is "i know the ending"

oohh,the hardest one,iron man2...i really2 want to watch it but since my sayang has already watch it so i reject gak lah...another time maybe..

we decided to pick persia since it seems so action,handsome and a warrior is hard to reject ~ngehngehngeh~

Persia or prince of Persia

tohmahan,cadangan dan kritikan

the starting is quite cliche as many other "emperor "films

you can see the king,the hamba,the lower classes, the armies,the horses,the poor people.

it describes the background of the story..it introduces to me the hero and the other two mysterious prince!!

pastu they grew up-become more handsome

i can feel the spirit of brotherhood in this story..therefore i feel like oh ,this is not the wrong choice---this movie is gonna be interesting and uuuummmpphh :P

yeah,its true.....but tak masuk akal ada la gak

the battle, the action, the fighting,the swords are not so disappointed

what i did not like in this story is the evil one is easy to detect even at the starting point of this story...the evil face,the hypocrite face made it detectable

erm, it would be more interesting or more uummpphh if the language that they use is the ancient-like language...not a modern english like using the word "chat", "tax" coz it ruined the setting of time of this story..but who cares.the Persian did not use english la ..it is alot easier to understand that way.it became a little not real i must say.hehe..

then both of us pegi makan kat McD,,,,i ordered double cheese burger as usual...

a lot of photos kat situ

then,turun bawah jalan2 kat taman....

amik gambar lagi since i really need it for my "resume"

ooohh, then kita org jadi spy!!!

we saw a guy holding a camera,wearing tshirt and jeans, not so tall but the body was like in good hotty shape..so we 'decided' to make the evening a lot more notty..heheh..

we follow that guy with an intention to make him aware of our presence and with high expectation that he would notice us and snap our pictures with his cool camera...

gezz wat!!he did snap

but not our pic la..hahah

so we follow him from behind...kat belakang.body nampak handsome kat depan pun nampak handsome tapi ada bekas jerawat...kening tebal...good looking i must say..

then he suddenly stop, so i cam ohmyohmy he stopped...so buatbuat control jalan depan dia...pastu dah jauh sikit cam release HAAH!!!pastu gelak kuat2...;D

pastu aktiviti ushar meng ushar neh terus dijalankan sampai kul 5 stgh

then we all pun pegi la jalan tempat laen..dh tak jumpa MANGSA dah..haha..uhh lupa ada lagi sorang rambut handsome gilerrrrrrr muka pun..pakai black T..aih..pastu teringat mine is just perfect.:)))

then after the whole kind of pusing, then balik!!

we had a wonderful time together hari ini..thanks syg coz belanja wayang and make me happy.. :)xoxo

our dreams

we always dream BIG!

nak pegi sambung blajar oversea la

nak jadi kaya la

nak semua yang gempak2

tak mustahil kan.

itulah kami

selalu membayangkan sesuatu yang menyeronokkan untuk menghilangkan rasa ketidakpuasan hati buat masa sekarang kerana hidup kami diibarat cam nightmare.kami nak cepat-cepat bangun dan bila buka mata semuanya indah.

kerana kami yakin semua itu akan kami gapai kalau blajar bersungguh-sungguh *i tak termasuk ye buat masa skrg,nxt sem i janji ngeh3 :P*

this was what we were story2 about at fb. my bes-tie sent me a msg---------

smlm berangan sikit. u n i, all around the world, together. u with ur fashion seeking and me wanting to just see the world. amacam? indah x agn2 tersebut? ahaks.

she is always know how to make me berkhayal lagi tak berhenti...

GOOD JOB babe!! hahah

this was what i replied to her

ooooooohhhhh so sweeeeeeeeeeet

me n u shopping at fifth avenue,paris oh my!!japan also included
then we fly together to sydney,newzealand playing with the kangaroo pastu fly ke india bli sari banyak2 visit oxford and flirting rich guys..ahahaha

oh HEAVEN

ameen..:)))

flirting rich guys is a must yeah xoxo.

wooosssshhh...nah! BIG kan dream kita org..nak ikut??JOM!!!

the top on our list...the most special one...insyaAllah

could not agree more

when i feel like people hates me

i feel like i wanna give up my life

and then i realized that every person who is dying actually begging to have another chance to live.how suffer they are.more suffering than i do.

so, i give up giving up.

live life to the fullest

owh i wish my darling, my sayangs could be here with me right now. become my groupmates. dammit!i hate school!i hate people!i hate them!

school sux u know

but the outcome is totally differ

like suffer first then heaven later

insane in the middle..

wooosshhh

a sister of mine

Separuh Jiwaku Pergi.

dear senior@roommate@pengacau terhebat@pemberi nasihat dan kata2 smgt yang bagus@sister notty

thanks for everything... feeling like SEparuh Jiwaku Pergi

u made me laughed every times we met

now you are not here besides me (for a long time)

maybe we could meet again

the laughed that we shared

the food that we ate together

the guy that we kacau together

the secret that we talked about

the music that we listened

the ubatgigi yang kita kongsi

the "helluuuu" that u sebut

the time we spend together for serious things changed to funny things

everything is precious to me

i can be myself when i am with you

she is a funny sister

she is garang kadang2 @ tegas kot

her voice is so sweet

i hope she will get what she deserves

i hope she will get what she idam2kan

i hope she will marry the person that loves her and become a good mother

*
*
*
*
*
*
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i love you

hope our friendship will remain strong and stronger

sorry for everything

and good bye till we meet again

InsyaAllah

feel free to visit me here.*mcm la die tau aku ada blog haha*

Lirik Lagu Kau Aku (OST MerahPutih) - Aizat

Kau Dan Aku

Kau dan aku ,adalah satu
Tak kira apa
Segala rintihan aku ,engkau selalu ada
Biar kata memisah kita
Biarkan saja
Kerana terbiasa
Chorus :
Mengejar mimpi ,yang pasti akan aku
Sentiasa merasa kehilanganmu
Ku akan tunggu saat bertemu
Tiada henti
Walau dimana kita berdiri
Di dalam dunia ini
Biar sampai akhirnya nanti

Semua tak terang di mataku ,walau warnanya menyala
Ingin merasa namun aku takkan cuba
Biar kata memisah kita
Biarkan saja
Kerana terbiasa
Ooohhh.
Mengejar mimpi ,yang pasti akan aku
Sentiasa merasa kehilanganmu
Ku akan tunggu saat bertemu
Tiada henti
Walau dimana kita berdiri
Di dalam dunia ini
Biar sampai akhirnya nanti
Biar sampai akhirnya nanti
Ooohhh..Oohhh..Ooohhh

sarcastic

sarcastic

sometimes i laugh sometimes cam hati di tusuk besi ngilu wo!!