war in me

they are facing death everyday. they have to survive in the massive killing of men, bombing, have to smell the gun powder everyday, never sleep well, smile in hunger, today they feel happy but in a few seconds next,they had to say goodbye to their loved one. they hear bad news everyday and some has no chance to hear it again. they being brutally abused by their own species.

its HELL for some of them.. its a challenge that they have to endure for some of them.. its a test from God as for some of them would think. its a victory for those who has no heart.

whose fault is it?

i'm not talking about the country that is involve in war or being forced to war or the victim of war;not only about them but also about war that is happening within ourselves

everyday, we fights against our own nature

some think that they are being born to be a man although naturally they are women

some might think that they have to convert to another religion just to suit their interest

some feels that tranquility is by having a nice glass of wine or a heavy loaded music for nonstop.

these people are facing the death of faith, created the war against their nature

;faith is their enemies,,religion is a rule-no freedom

as a conclusion

everyone is in war

who should be blame

who should to be considered as enemy

who should to be considered as victim

who should help them

i keep asking myself

what i have done to stop or prevent the war?

am i a good warrior or just a coward?

as a muslim i've been thought that religion is the pillar of tranquility,peace and harmony

faith is the soul of humankind

if you understand these lines above then you are able to know what actually i am trying to say

we are a warrior,born to keep the world in peace and prevent it from chaos

we have our own vision and mission.

perseverance

http://myhero.com/go/films/view.asp?film=perseverance

Don't look at the people around you who doings things and think that they are made of something more than you. They learned some stuff and they putting it to use and they probably willing to work really hard for it but they are not made of anything different than you are.

Liz Murray

Homeless to Harvard

cinta pada ku.

sekarang,tak tahu apa yang nak dirasa dan apa patut dirasa. hidup ini penuh tanda-tanya. hanya Dia yang mengetahui permulaan,pengakhiran dan antara keduanya. hanya perlu redha akan ketentuannya. mungkin amat perit untuk diterima sesuatu yang terjadi kepada diri lebih-lebih lagi bukan itu yang diharapkan.

setiap yang pergi akan diganti dengan yang lebih baik. tapi perlu diingat jua yang baik itu hanya padan dengan yang terbaik.

gelora jiwa melemaskan minda, menyukarkan diri untuk berfikir dengan tenang. sujudku pada ilahi dapat meredakannya.

mungkin sudah suratan dia bukan untukku mungkin jua sudah ketentuan dia masih belum sesuai untukku.

apa yang perlu dan patut dibimbangkan ialah tentang masa depan. apa yang terbentang didepan mata perlu diselesaikan. setiap impian masa kecil, setiap pengorbanan ibu dan bapa harus dibalas dan dikotakan. itu janjiku,pada diri.

cinta itu buta,cinta itu seksa,cinta itu indah,cinta itu mempesona dan cinta itu sengsara.

tidak boleh tidak bercinta kerna cinta itu ciptaan ilahi suatu rahmat pada hambanya kerna ia sebenarnya suci tetapi hanya manusia yang mengotorinya.

terpulang pada diri untuk mentafsirnya.padaku cinta harus dibiarkan pergi untuk dia kembali bersemi.

lirik HANYA DIA dari CTKD

Ku cintainya kerana cara dia
Sungguh berbeda dari yang telah ku jumpa
Renungan dia tulus merasuk jiwa
Hingga terasa terus ke hati

Ku cintainya kerana kesungguhannya
Bukannya kata-kata semata-mata
Perwatakannya mengatakan segalanya
Buatku percayakan janjinya

*
Ku akui aku menggilainya
Ku akui aku menyintainya
Kisahku kisah dia
Cerita yang sama
Setiap detik hanya dia

**
Ku akui aku mengaguminya
Ku akui aku menyayanginya
Sungguhnya ku akui ku perlukan dia
Segalanya kuserah kepada dia

Cintai dia bersama mimpi-mimpinya
Cintai dia juga segala caranya
Cintai dia bersama keanehannya
Cintai dia hanya dia

look wat i found... click it -->FYMKA

hahah!!what a coincident she has the Olsens in her blog...

i want to go shopping at this shop

nottybloggystepped mapped me to her blog..lots of cool outfits overhere

eating maggie and nottybloggystepped at the same time..

i think i need a twitter...daaaaaaaaa

blogwalking but i call it nottybloggystepped

Pictures

A Picture A DAY KEEPS Your Dream in REALITY

today's pictures are about family and love. I choose Tom Cruise, Nicole Kidman as the first picture to be shown because they both lo0k perfect, the light is just nice and make the pic more amazing.

the second one is the trio. different scenario and different stories behind this second pic. I choose this pic because, look at Suri she is just adorable and the way Tom stand just gives the impression how lovely he is as a father.. owh, about KAtie I love her shoes and her posture in this picture..

A picture gives you different impressions and different stories to be interpreted. Just imagine that you are in those pictures, how lovely or bad it could be. heheh

hantu tu kamu!!

i hate ghost

i hate everything about ghost

i wonder why it is existed

kalau tak ada mereka maka aman dunia.

hey Bush! *tetiba* sebab ko la ramai jadi hantu

hey Pembunuh! sebab ko lah banyak setan kat muka bumi ni

hey Perogol! sebab ko lah banyak yang bunuh diri lepas tu jadi hantu

hey Pendusta! sebab ko lah banyak cerita hantu yang tak betul

hey Penakut! sebab ko lah Hantu jadi suka gembira hidup

kalau tak nak ada HAntu jangan jadi semua yang diatas.itu moralnya puisi ini.

*aih taip ni pun jad seriau tetiba...the end...bye takuuutttt*

yesterday as a dreamer

yesterday was the most precious day i had in my life...

thanks to all the efforts to make me feel appreciated...

Thanks To Allah because He has made me felt happy and masih happy.

i am waiting for that someone to say happy phrases..i put high expectation on that person to wish me that.

i wanna be with you

i wanna see your face smiling at me

wishing me happiness and longevity

but you are with somebody else

i wanna see your face hating her

wishing me love and sincerity

i wanna be closer to you

i wanna be your love

wishing the wishes to come true

i dreamed about u last night

i dreamed someone else loved me

and i loved him back

and you disappeared

i felt a deep hole in my chest

you did nothing to cure it

so i guessed

it was just a dream

i wanna stop dreaming

but you are keep closer to me

you digging a deeper hole inside my chest

so stop being my dream

its hurt enough

for me to love you

who is not in love with me.

Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah.

Ya Allah, semoga yang ku cari akan ku temui hari ini

inilah doa yang dipanjatkan kehadrat ILahi.. dan telah ditunjukkanNya dan diperkenankanNYA doa tersebut maka segala urusan telah selesai dengan baiknya.Alhamdulillah.

happy teaching me

today is 18th may 2011..

and i wanna wish to all my lecturers and my previous teachers a wonderful year of teaching. thanks for the 'ilmu' and your 'kesabaran'.

and i wanna thank to my classmates and my previous classmates because you guys have made the classes a cheerful place to study.

sorry for the rude words that i used behind your back.:P

sorry for my rudeness and stubbornness.

sorry for the plagiarisms.:P:P

i'm not gonna say that i miss my school so much or i love my teachers

but

i do miss my school life and the people inside it.

xoxo..

photoshoot

received a reply from the modelling agency

Dear Future Talents

Potrait Shoot bakal berlangsung pada 29/5/2010 ini.

HANNAH STUDIO POTRAIT SHOOT

Photoshoot Info

Tarikh : 29/5/2010

Hari : Sabtu

Jam : 9.00 – 7.00 ptg

Tempat : Taman Tasek KLCC (berhadapan Masjid di KLCC)

aih dekat je tuh...tapi ongkosnya mahal rm250..NO MONEY NO OPPORTUNITY. :(

Air Asia

Air Asia

air asia's free seat.

starting 18th may 2010 for 3jan-8may 2011 tickets..

don't forget..:)

haha menara gading cuti seminggu 30jan sampai 6 feb 2011 so ape lg..cop cepat2.. :D

Again I asked.

I asked God to replace his place

When I walked down the street

Praying for that to happen

I turned my head to the left

Then I saw a guy

Walking on the same path as I was

I still remember

he was wearing that

White shirt and black pants

My heart smiled

Then I turned back.

In just three seconds I can remember his face

And it seems it cant fade away, the face.

I kept wondering, who was that guy??at that time onwards

Then, seemed god again has answered my prayer

What a unique name he has

Just like mine, unique

We both then kept running from each other.

Now, I feel. The prayer is a mistake.

The answer was a challenge

Am I gonna win this challenge?

I don’t want to win

beCause I don’t want to feel hurt

Again.

Give me a clue, guidance

I want my memories about him

Fade forever

It must start fading rite now

It must.

Please God, replace his place in my heart with another one.

Again.


dengarkan lagu ini TERNYATA

love story

The more i lie the more i love you.

:::sxoxo

kesan ponteng

aih...klas tukar venue...sebbaik tergerak hati nak buka portal...damn!!padan muka S!!sape sruh ponteng..


pengajaran hari ini:: jgn ponteng kelas walau pun sekali je sebab nanti bnyk yang ketinggalan...sgt banyak.

wondering y she is not so popular..if she is popular this thing would not gonna happn..the news will come to her directly..

dapat 1st love letter aka warning letter drpd ustazah.. yeah,lucky me.

oh, bm puny love letter is coming soon.. bared me please... :) dh letih dah pegi je kelas tak ada org pastu nk marah2. i know it is my fault.yeah put the blame on me.

tak tahu kenapa. sem ni cam kosong. nothing interesting. everything seems harder and boring. hatred and egoism are the viruses that are killing me within my heart.. *cewah*

i need to be more closer to God. thats the only way.

maybe this is karma.sorry mom..sorry pa..i'm such a LOSER.

i'm a loser!!

last week pegi rumah my sister kat subang. ponteng 2 kelas sebab takde mood nak study. janji ngan my sis kul 4.40 sampai lrt kelana jaya but as usual sampai kul 6..haha.. masuk2 je kereta , i buat muka comel, muka dia plak cam singa,GARANG... pastu time u-turn nak masuk lrg tu jem teruk my sis ckp *sambil menundingkan jarinya ke depan dan berkata*

my sis: tu tengok tuh

i: *tgh makan karipap dan terus mendongakkan kepala ke depan* ohh LOSER *billboard iklan LOSER*..hahaha *i gelak sbb bukan itu yang dimaksudkannya*...

muka die trus tak jadi marah.

faham tak???die nak bg tau kat i yang jem kat depan teruk gler sbb i sampai kul 6.kalau kul 4.30 tu tak la jem sgt sbb tu die sruh tgk kat dpn tapi dah jarinya cam tunjuk billboard tu plak..aih ingatkan nak ajak pi tgk movie..:D

Then menghabiskan weekend ngan tgk movi n tv... hari sabtu tgk AF..

my sis minat gler kat syahir af8 tuh...kenapa saya ckp die minat GLERR sbb bila je syahir diundi keluar die cam marah gler..dia ckp dah tak nak tgk AF sampai bebila..pastu muka dia seperti masa i sampai lewat kat kj..minat syahir rupanya...tak penah2 tgk AF tetiba tgk tak pernah miss sbb syahir haha...minat tapi tak undi buat pe sis..:P

pastu balik menara gading ni hari isnin malam sbb tak ley jalan..kaki bleeding nonstop for 3 days in a row..so,ponteng lagi..NO MC coz i hate doctor/clinic/medicine. my sis and my bil kept urging me to see the doctor but i refused coz treeeettt rahsia and sebab2 diatas... so i missed ustazah punya klas. FYI dah dua kali ponteng ...hihi..

pastu hari selasa ada kelas bm kul 2 sampai 3.50..smgt ni nak pi kelas sbb tak pernah masuk lg kelas ML.classmates pun tak kenal lagi sape. lecturer dh knl.. pastu pi la kelas..sampai2 je tepat kul 2. tapi satu org pun takde kat dpn kelas, dpn pintu, dpn tingkap,dlm kelas pun tak de..tunggu punya tunggu adala dlm 10 minit, tak muncul2 juga org kt dpn pintu kelas ML..so ape lagi i blah la..pastu tak sedap hati, jumpa my friend tanya, "kelas ni ada org tak" my fren kata rasanya ada.pastu hati berbelah bagi nak blah ke tak nak..takkan classmate i smua suka dtg lewat..so, i pun blah balik bilik but before balik bilik pi cari bilik lecturer ML tu kot2 dia tak buat kelas ke tapi tak jumpa,takde bilik kot.

hari khamis, pi kelas bm lagi, ni tetiba berdebar sbb takut lecturer marah tak masuk kelas dah bnyk hari..haha...pastu kejadian sama berulang..CEH!!!20 minit tunggu takde sorang pun masuk kelas..DAMN U!!! so i decided nak pi tanya pihak berwajib..buat muka tebal sbb malu kantoi ponteng..

pihak berwajib: ye?

I: erm, sekarang saya ada kelas bm, dari kul 2 sampai 350 tapi takde org pun dalam kelas.???*bm aku hancur sorry Malaysia*.

pastu sebbaik dia faham.

pihak berwajib: ooo, section berapa?

I:section 26, kelas kat lr4.11 cikgu H..*nah amik ko laporan penuh*

pihak berwajib:oh,kejap ek.*pastu dia pi bgtau org dalam..

org dalam pun keluar menuju ke telefon..cakap kuat gler..nak sruh aku dgr la tu..haha..

org dalam: asslmlkm, blablabla..ni ada student datang tanya cikgu H ada kelas tak hari ni...blalabla...oh,dah buat kelas ganti...blablabla..tak saja je tanya.ok asslkm.

dalam hatiku..kelas ganti????OMG!!haha.. rupanya takde klas minggu nih...cikgu dah ganti awal2 dah..haha..pastu org dalam dtg bgtau i...so, i terkantoi tak g kelas ML...haha..amik ko S!!

then jumaat pi MID V ngan my syg, kak senior and lana @ adik kakak senior tgk LOSER..BESsssHHHHHHHH and makan double cheese burger McD.

xoxo...

crazy

beutiful, isn't it... well, they look so gojes and tall..wait! how do i know that they are tall??haha..

ok this post is not about those gojes women but about me, the not so gojes woman with 4 eyes and big nose and fat tummy. yeah, that is me believe it or not... 

in spite of looking like big brown apple, i have a very high ambition, dream beyond what i'm supposed to dream.. yeah i have made my choice... to try something new...which can bring me profit and new experience..

make a trip to london? nope!!

study so hard until u get dean's list? nope, but i will

kawin??nope!!i have not found any man that is funny and gentleman, NOT YET. 

erm, how about applying for JPA scholarship or KHAZANAH oh yeah, MAXIS scholarship???TIDAK!!

habis tu ape????

read these lines and u akan tau...xoxo

i need money

i need money

so

the most easy way to get it 

is

drum rooooooooooooolllllllllllllll

hahahaha

i have applied to become a MODEL

WTH!!!

yeah i know i'm crazy

last nite i found this website and then sent them my application

well, the terma2 atau syaratnya adalah

1)sihat tubuh badan, tidak merokok and laen2 yang haram *lulus*

2)a malaysian *lulus*

3)160 and above *lulus*

4)currently bertudung *of coz*

5)and laen2 syarat *erm,lulus*

after, thinking about it in a few minutes, so i made my decision to apply to this post

i sent them my close up pic which i thought it was kiut but sexy

i also sent gambar penuh from top to bottom which i saw myself blessed with 'cun' body figure.bolehlah.:))

kalau papa tau neh mati la jwbnya...aiseyyyman!!!

they offer rm100 for 6-10 pictures

rm600 for runway models

rm300 for magazine or catalog 

so, i started to do sit up

hurrraaayyyyyyyy!!!

wait,wait!!!

dia org tak approve lagi la...

SS je lebih neh...hehe :P

wish me some luck...xoxo