Friday, July 30, 2010

my boy


A NEW BABY BOY IN THE FAMILY
THE 15th

ALHAMDULILLAH yesterday 29 JULY 2010 I am officially an AUNT for 15th times.



a TEASER

i want u to be handsome like ed westwick but mesti beriman ye.xoxo..a gentleman like chuck bass and a genius like Einstein

with love from your aunt that looks like maya karin..awwww :P

Sunday, July 18, 2010

a break-up

waiting for the ramadhan to appear

and syawal for a start

i love you my beloved  family
i love you man
i love you woman
i love you my friends
the more love you give
the more love you get

i love you scar
i love you mystery dotdotdot


haha


my life is great rite now without facebook
i feel FREE 
but my relationship with my brothers and sisters
makin lama makin jauh
haha
yeah a bit of regrets at that point
but what to do

i need a break
from all the problems 
and negative thoughts
i will miss my lovely facebookers

but i have to close my heart for facebook
this is the rite decision

i want to be happy this semester
thats all i want to feel 

i'll gonna miss you guys
everyday

sorry darling,i cannot reactivate my fb
not now,not in this semester
i need a break





Monday, July 12, 2010

takut

Butterfly in stomach
takut nak start sem baru
takut result tak gempak cam abangnya yang dh nak fly ke ovc *damn u abang!!*
takut semua pandang dirinya comel tapi tak pandai
takut semua puji-pujian dari orang kampung mengatakan dia pandai memerangkap dirinya, TEnsion

takut apa yang diplan tak jadi
takut dirinya tak ada kawan yang nak berkawan dengannya
takut kehilangan orang yang disayangi, mummy i love u..gaduh besar dengannya cuti haritu.hihi
takut kisah jadi stalker terbongkar
takut result bahasa asingnya diketahui umum

takut kakaknya spread the news about me n my email yang emotional tahap jiwang kapak..adusshhh menyesal aku bagi pasword email kat die..tak amanah langsung..

takut abang-abangnya terasa hati dengan kedegilan dan kesombongan adik terkecil mereka ini.. sorry bang,dont blame me for everything.

takut dosa-dosanya tak diampuni tuhan
takut kehilangan keredhaan ibu dan bapa

aku takut semua ini. ADAKAH INI NORMAL?

takut!!!
meremang bulu roma

ADAKAH INI PETANDA YANG BAIK??

A new HAir Cut



88 % like nicole richie




12% like Noh Hujan
:P


LOVE THIS NEW HAIR CUT

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Jelas dia menipu

dia kata dia tahu
dia kata aku tak tahu
buta,pekak
tak berhati
mati

dia kata semua salahku
semua rahsia dia tahu
aku tak tahu

mungkin benar dia pernah selingkuh
tapi itu dulu
kata dia aku percaya

pusing tengok lihat
siapa disana membawa tangan yang memeluk tubuhmu erat suatu ketika dulu?
tak nampakkah lagi
tak rasa kah lagi, dia
Curang?

Jelas bukan
kata dia
TIPU

Jelas bukan
dia
PENIPU

heret sama janji dulu
buang sedih ganti rindu
siapa yang seksa?
hanya dia seorang

dulu sekata
makan semeja
tidur berbantal satu
hati jadi satu
jelas dirinya.

sekarang buka mata
pekakkan telinga
TINGGALKAN DIA.
jangan tanya aku Kenapa.

pusing toleh lihat ke depan
hati bukan satu
tidur lena tanpanya
makan bagai raja
biar tak sekata
buang semua janji dulu

Jelas bukan
kau akan
BAHAGIA

Thursday, June 24, 2010

seni itu jiwa baginya

menghabiskan masa menenangkan minda dan menjana idea seni di sini DeLuQies

-bila kegembiraan  menjadi speechless akibat gurauan penipuan tersebut toing3- I DAPAT LESEN P- sekian

Friday, June 18, 2010

sarlamat tinggal..

i cant sleep last night coz i was thinking too much about him. i felt miserable. i felt i am ugly,stupid,clumsy and other negative thoughts. i even cant concentrate on my revision because of those negative thoughts. i kept asking why?apa lebihnya dia?apa kurangnya diri ini?is it my fault?or you are the one who is blind. well, he gave me the hope and the he ruined it.. i prayed last night to get some strength to  face him today. then i woke up this morning, checked my sms and my lovely sister sent me a message-words of advice

Wanita solehah itu tidak suka mengenali dan dikenali, tak suka memandang dan dipandang, serta dibibir nya tak minati nama-nama lelaki dan dibibir lelaki tak meminati namanya

Saidatina Fatimah

ooohhh it was like---menusuk ke jiwa..terasa bangat diri ini tak sesolehah saidatina Fatimah..Astaghfirullah hal a'ziim . Allah always shows me the right path whenever i am in the wrong black hole. So, i like to announce that i am not gonna talk about men for a while. insyaAllah.. puasa kan diri hahah.. well, to make it simple if i'm no good to you, you are no good to me either or much worse... so what is the point talking nice and shit things about you anyway..you are the one who is loosing me, LOSER!!!

tutup buku lama,buka buku baru
menyahtoksin neh susah gak..moga diberi keiimanan yang kuat..keazaman yang kukuh...

tx sister HUSNA A...muaxx

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

floating

teringat masa kecik-kecik dulu..pantang nampak kolam terus masukkan dua-dua kaki dalam kolam sambil berdiri...
plummmm!! tetiba dunia gelap,telinga pekak
then my hero datang menyelamatkan
i can still feel the strong grip of my brother's hands. he pulled me out from the pool and dropped me on the hard floor..then my mom came running towards me with anger..haha..i cried not because i nak lemas tapi sebab kena marah... i was around 8 or 9 when it was happened.
don't blame me...kolam tu nampak stakat lutut je tapi bila masuk sampai dada airnya..haha..dari situ la terus semat dalam otak-jangan terpedaya dengan kolam air,DALAM.

then orang ajak mandi kolam pun dah tak ingin..

later, my papa taught me how to swim but i barely able to float unless with the help from him. he bought me pelampung to help me floating-erm actually i think he made it by himself from tayar getah..kuang3.
but the lesson seemed too extreme for a manja and egoist like me (reminder i was between 9 or 10 years old at that time,of coz la manja,hihi)

then i blaja cara tahan nafas dalam air.i severally practiced it in the bathroom and OCCAsionally made a bet with my bro-sapa menyelam paling lama dia menang...of coz la dia yang menang-p/s he was the champion in swimming at his school bawah 12 tahun suatu ketika dulu *eerrrgghh*

second times lemas kat pantai,sbb nak praktikkan apa yang diajar oleh papa.bajet terer tahan nafas dalam air masin sengsorang..pastu tetiba masa nak menyelam tetiba nafas tak banyak pastu terus panik..air masuk hidung, terkapai-kapai nasib baik air paras pinggang je..so dapat naik balik kepala n bernafas..pastu terus naik...menjadi rahsia dari keluarga sampai sekarang.. SERIK..

time masuk kolam dalam sampai leher adalah di bukit merah lake town resort masa tu from 4 or form 5...i can still walking in the pool and turun naikkan kepala dalam air tak mcm skrg..tapi still tak pandai berenang..i cant even float.jelez melihat keberanian anak buahnya menyelam dan floating dan boleh dikira berenang..aih she was just 10 or 11 at that time.she even learned how to do all that stuff almost by herself.

then time matric adalah last skali masuk kolam...my sister showing off her capability of floating with hand widely open..i plak just jalan2 dlm air.

pastu sekarang I was FLOATING AND siap bernafas dalam air lagi..lama giler boleh tahan nafas.. thanks to ain coz teach me how to do all of that.minit pertama around 20 minit cam gtu nak tahan nafas pun dah tak ingat camne,still tak de skill lagi pastu ain tunjuk camne nak buat baru segala ingatan masa kecik2 dulu tentang cara2 tahan nafas menjelma kembali diingatan..and skill ain tu sangat berguna dan mudah untuk diikuti. thanks to the sister jugak coz bagi tips tahan nafas dan bernafas dalam air. i learned fizik today..the bubbles that running out from the nose or the mouth are actually helping you to float your head up to the surface..*ganyang je neh ntah betul ke tidak teori aku neh..hehe*
the sister said that if u want to float-this is the easy way..letak tangan kat dinding jubin kolam push it harder and release or force your legs to float and straighten your posture and your legs. then lepas kan tangan dari jubin perlahan-lahan.*yang ni tak buat coz kenangan silam masih menghantui*

ain taught me a lot..she gave me courage to swim again...she always said that "trust me babe"or "u kena buat macam ni" or "tengok ain buat ni"..she always gave me positive energy and courage to float..and i can float..*terasa diri kurus jap sbb boleh float*
the tips untuk tahan nafas and bernafas juga berguna dan saya berjaya melakukannya paling lama dalam sejarah tahan nafas saya.. i think i nak bet ngan my bro lagi..mesti i yang menang :D

jelez tgk ain boleh 'terbang' dalam air...i nak berenang cam JAN DI dalam cerita BOF..
erm,kena bagi toblerone kat ain kalau hari ke 4 i tak pandai berenang lagi..aih, ni yang nak kena belajar berenang betul2 neh kalau tak melayang duit aku..haha..tapi dh nak cuti so next sem lah..

i think i need a google...so that i can use my eyes while diving. and buy swimming outfit..mydin sounds murah..oh, i think i wanna replace my sleeping time at 4/6 into swimming activity..

FLOATING people..I was FLOATING...tak LEMAS!!and tak masuk air dalam telinga *kejayaan terbesar i think* xoxo